most of the time we suffer from excessive gloom.

cheerfulness is an achievement, and hope is something to celebrate.

we are doomed not by a lack of skill, but by an absence of hope.

– Alain de Botton, Art as Therapy

had a talk that helped clear my anxiety and insecurities. i learned that it's really hard to be vulnerable and communicate your needs and uncertainty, it's something that i have to learn how to do more.

10 minute push up with A. did homework at the library with A. had dinner at Sai's restaurant with chinatown mafia. talked about religion, lgbtq, morality, and culture. i should have more discussions with friends to know who i am. it's hard to do these if you're only conversing with yourself most of the time.